GONG XI GONG XI!!

wah... chinese new year liao lo... currently sitting in the office boring ma ass off... kanasai..

came to the office and my colleagues said to me " eh, this is the first day of CNY and people should be waking up, greeting their parent's GONG XI FATT CHAI and getting ang paos... not waking up and coming to work" i wish i can do the latter..

ahhh.. the well known and most copied red packets...

in malaysia, ang paos come in diff colors, like green for hari raya, and errmm... ahhh... black? blue? for deepavali... hehehe(paiseh) but malaysia is so diversed that we mix and share cultures(except from the sunat part). but anyways, im looking forward to a great year. because im able to share it with someone special...*hint-hint*...

i was driving through Sentul to Jalan Ipoh yesterday to a chinese temple, and on the roads, it seemed like all the chinese in malaysia has been evaporated or extinct... but i felt relieved when i reached the temple(im not alone). and this morning was a smooth drive all the way in kl...

in the office we can actually shoot the new series of "LOST" because we are literally stranded in the office, with no nearby food shops(all closed), the roads are empty and we cant go anywhere until our work is over... T_T summore the call volumes are so low today that i really feel like im in "LOST"...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! ANG PAO NA LAI!!

ps: i love u Stephanie Kok Yen Ling...

Tadaaaaa~~~~!!

this is her... the one who is holding my heart now... the one whom i think of day and night, the one whom i miss every single day and the one whom i love so much...



if u look properly , behind those boxes is where my heart lay...

its like despite what is happenening i really want to love her... not caring what happens tomorrow, the day after... living everyday as if its your last day on earth....



omg, this picture took my breath away....*wheeze*

i have never treated her like any i've met before, i know that she is special... so special in fact, im willing to stand in the rain for her... i dont care...

I ish klaysee.... klaysee man with klaysee woman!!

she makes me love her like "klaysee" and i dont want that feeling to go away... the moments we have, and the times we share...


Klaysee man and klaysee woman part 2... wuahahahah

sometimes the random things she does makes me blush(and she is damn good at it), i have never recieved anything like so before, and i thought i would never find love like this anymore...




biii~~ i wan eat~~... *giggles*

What i wanna do right now is to stand on top of a mountain, like lookout point and scream "I SCREAM YOU SCREAM, EVERYBODY LIKES ICE CREAM!!" hahaha... no, but seriously, what i wanna scream is " BENJAMIN YAP KOK BIN LOVES STEPHANIE KOK YEN LING!!!!"


and i really do~~~

Queen of Hearts

i know its been a short duration, but i have never felt so wanted in my life. my biggest fear is feeling unappreciated for what i do... its because of my past experiences and the fickleness of some people's minds that have brought this fear in me. I told myself not to give too much but then again, i cant stop being who i am... but right now... i feel like im being in love for the first time again.





i know this sounds dramatic, but i always have a way with words and feelings. i always put my feelings into words, never fearing what other people might think of me. with each passing day, as i get to know her more, the more i find that im falling more and more of her... even when i work, i think of her. never knowing what tomorrow might bring, i still want to care and love her. i tell myself "live life as if its the last day that you'll be on earth". do you all know how it feels again to have your first love? im sure everyone does, at a certain point in their lives. truth be told, i am actually feeling it right now, despite having years and years of experiences.





with her, i just couldnt care so much about what i have been hurt about in the past. with her, i just wanna live a new love and feel brand new again. im not exaggerating this but this is how i feel deep down inside of me.





"life is to short to worry about so many things"





ps:I love you...

Yeah... Its you...

Thank you for coming into my life.... as we speak, my life is changing.... all for the better.... ^^V

Goodbye sad 2008, Hello unknowing 2009

2008 oh 2008... it was a year full of ups and downs, never knowing what came next... never knowing what hid just around the corner. many things happened unexpectedly... loving and then not loving again... finding and losing again...

im smiling and feeling sad while im writing this, how i so wanted the year to end and it did... hoping the new year will bring on new blessings... i have to thank Ren, Zoey, Wen, Angel, Shawn, and StephK for coming for my new year chillout...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!